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31.1 How it can be identified.
The first thing we notice in this realm is how dark and somber the Kingdom is. In the Kingdom of God, the Monarch died to self to better serve others; but in the Kingdom of Satan, others will die to satisfy the appetites of the Devourer. In the Kingdom of Man, the Ruler's concerns were for his Project. In the Kingdom of Satan, these concerns are focused on Self! ME!

In the Kingdom of Satan, the Devourer is interested in only one person- ME! Satisfying ME! Looking after ME! Pleasing ME! Eventually, the Devourer will consume everyone and everything in his Kingdom. He will do it for his own pleasure and at his convenience. That is why we identify him as the Devourer. Saint Peter tells us, "Be calm but vigilant, because your enemy the devil is prowling round like a lion, looking for someone to devour." (1) In the Kingdom of Satan, the Devourer measures his every move against the benefits he will have for him and him alone. The Devourer will severely punish anyone who makes him suffer in any way. In the Kingdom of Satan, the Devourer destroys life and creativity in the Other.

31.2 Sounds of the suffering.
In the Kingdom of Satan, there are two dominant sounds: those of the Devourer burping and drooling in self-gratification and the despairing cries of those he has trapped. In the Kingdom of Satan, the Devourer destroys life and creativity in the Other.

31.3 Faces of the dying.
In the Kingdom of Satan, everyone is there for the pleasure of the Devourer. When they have nothing left that pleases him, they will be left to wither and die. In the Kingdom of Satan, the Devourer destroys life and creativity in the Other.

31.4 No escape.
In the Kingdom of Satan, there is no escape for those he or she has tricked into enslavement. Because of his subtle and deceptive ways, they are, for a time, completely unaware of what is happening to them, why they are there and why they are appreciated. These innocent souls do not suspect in the least the fate that awaits them. It is only after they have given their best years to him, that they realize they have been snared. Only Love can rescue them.

One of the most beautiful persons I ever met was to be married. On her wedding day, I went by the Church to see how radiant she would be on this very special day in her life. Waiting outside for her arrival, I saw the groom with his friends, smoking underneath the front steps of the Church. They were laughing together as they talked about what was going to happen that night. My heart broke in two. I wanted to have the wedding stopped, but did not have the courage to do so. How would I explain it? Some time later, after much abuse and the arrival of one child, her parents rescued her.

Too late the innocent discover, to their horror, that the Devourer is not interested in them as persons. His only interest in them is for the pleasures and services they can give him, in the ways they can be of use to him. As each person realizes that he or she sacrificed the best years of his or her life for the selfish appetites of the Devourer, his or her heartbreak is fathomless. In the Kingdom of Satan, the Devourer destroys life and creativity in the Other.

31.5 Freedom.
In the Kingdom of Satan, freedom of any kind, for anyone, is out of the question. The only freedom slaves in this Kingdom have is how to best please the Devourer. In the Kingdom of Satan, the Devourer destroys life and creativity in the Other.

31.6 The ill, the disabled, the aged.
In the Kingdom of Satan, persons who are ill, crippled, or otherwise disabled and who cannot serve the Devourer are abandoned. In the Kingdom of Satan, the Devourer destroys life and creativity in the Other.

31.7 Submission.
In the Kingdom of Satan, persons cannot think differently from the Devourer. They cannot dream differently from the Devourer. They cannot speak differently from the Devourer. Everyone is required to live in complete submission to the needs of the Devourer. In the Kingdom of Satan, the Devourer destroys life and creativity in the Other.

31.8 Learning experiences.
In the Kingdom of Satan, the only learning experiences are those where the Devourer adventures into newer and more diversified episodes of self-gratification. In the Kingdom of Satan, the Devourer destroys life and creativity in the Other.

31.9 Condemnations and put-downs.
In the Kingdom of Satan, the Devourer is constantly desecrating the Other. The Devourer is constantly putting the Other down, pushing the Other around, demeaning, crushing, condemning, abusing and otherwise ill-treating his slaves. Each time someone fails to please him, He explodes in rage causing great emotional and physical harm to the Other. In the Kingdom of Satan, the Devourer destroys life and creativity in the Other.

31.10 Creativity.
In this Kingdom, creativity exists for the sole purpose of satisfying the taste buds of the Devourer. In the Kingdom of Satan, the Devourer destroys life and creativity in the Other.

31.11 Accentuating the negative.
When things go wrong in this Kingdom (when the Devourer does not have his way), he goes into a blind rage. He severely punishes the wrongdoer for having disturbed his plans and his comfort. In the Kingdom of Satan, the Devourer destroys life and creativity in the Other.

31.12 Fragility of the Other.
In the Kingdom of Satan, the Devourer will not tolerate subjects who are frail and fragile, unless their frailties and fragility's can add to his pleasures. In the Kingdom of Satan, the Devourer destroys life and creativity in the Other.

31.13 Peace.
In the Kingdom of Satan, there is no Peace. Suffering, crying, anguish, despair and dying are the order of the day, every day. Because of his never-ending preoccupation with personal pleasure and self-gratification, he is unaware of all the tears and sobbing taking place around him. In the Kingdom of Satan, the Devourer destroys life and creativity in the Other.

31.14 The rule of right and wrong.
As in the Kingdom of Man, in this Kingdom the rule of right and wrong is very simple to understand. The Devourer is always right and everyone else is always wrong. In the Kingdom of Satan, the Devourer destroys life and creativity in the Other.

31.15 Slavery.
In this Kingdom, persons are slaves to the Devourer. They have no choice in anything except how best to cater to his every whim. Otherwise, they will suffer the full force of his wrath. In the Kingdom of Satan, an individual's basic needs are assured only as long as he satisfies the Devourer. In the Kingdom of Satan, the Devourer destroys life and creativity in the Other.

31.16 Environment.
In the Kingdom of Satan, it is always somber. The pungent smell of death hangs in the air. Love and forgiveness starve to death. Mercy dies. Pity dies Hopes die. Dreams die. Personal relationships die. Friendships die. Understanding and compassion die. Plans die. Growth is stunted. In the Kingdom of Satan, the Devourer destroys life and creativity in the Other.

31.17 The Devourer.
Man's physical attributes, so lovingly designed to give glory to God through His creation, have now become instruments of terror and war. Their sole purpose is to feed the Devourer's uncontrolled appetites through his devouring of others. This is a government that is not only out of control but whose values and goals are completely opposite to those of the Kingdom of God. Consequently, the Devourer is constantly in aggressive opposition to Jesus Christ, the Son of God, and everyone and everything associated with Him. Our King is his enemy. As far as the Devourer is concerned, the Spirit is nothing and the flesh is everything, the complete opposite to what Jesus tells us, "It is the spirit that gives life, the flesh has nothing to offer." His kingdom is, in effect, ruled by pride, lust, envy, gluttony, anger, avarice and sloth, the seven deadly sins.

31.18 The Mind.
Ruthlessly, the Devourer does what he wants, when he wants, to whomever he wants. There is no need to plan anything, other than seeing to his own wants. How this is done does not matter. Once used to help the heart glorify God, his Mind is now a slave to his every appetite. Everything is rush, rush, rush and now, now, now. The great cerebral powers he once had at his service are now confused, incapable, fractured and for all intents and purposes, completely useless. By destroying everyone in his kingdom, the Devourer is, in the process, destroying himself.

31.19 The Monarch.
The Monarch who once governed in the Kingdom of God allowed himself to be distanced from Jesus (His Royal Confidante) by failing to use his will and by acquiescing to the demands of logic. Then, as his own vision of power and authority grew and grew, he took greater and greater delight in satisfying his personal appetites and cravings. Because it was now the flesh and not the spirit who was in charge:
he lost his Friend and Royal Confidante, Jesus.
he lost his Father's paternal love.
he lost the consolation of the Holy Spirit's counsels.
he broke his heavenly Mother's heart.
he lost his will, his mind, and his body.
he lost his mandate to govern and the love and friendship of all those his heavenly Father has entrusted to his care.
He lost everything.

31.20 The Royal Flag.
In the Kingdom of Satan, death is the flag that identifies the Devourer as the governor. There is no life here. (See Chapter 31.16) Love and forgiveness have long ago died. Dreams have died. Hope has died. Opportunity has died. Mercy has died. Pity has died. Personal relationships have died. Understanding and compassion have died. Friendships have died. Inevitably, everyone (and everything) will die because of the greed and lust of the Devourer. When this happens, the Devourer will perish also, for when there is no one left for him to devour, he too must die.

31.21 Sound a little far fetched?
Here is how, in three seconds flat, I verbally abused and condemned a perfect stranger.

One evening, Florence and I were returning home after enjoying a wonderful Little Theatre presentation. We had a great time together. Suddenly, a small truck sped from a side street into my lane, right in front of me.
"What the hell's the matter with him?" I yelled. "Doesn't he know the law?" I added with a mouth full of venom.
"Maybe there's a reason." said Florence in her usual calm voice.
Three blocks down the street we were in front of the General Hospital, and there was the truck- parked at the hospital emergency entrance.

This incident completely shook me up. I had condemned the driver- (Kingdom of Satan). I blamed him for being stupid- (Kingdom of Satan). I showered scorn on him- (Kingdom of Satan). I criticized him for not knowing the law- (Kingdom of Man). My voice was full of anger- (Kingdom of Man and Kingdom of Satan). I jumped on this person's back like a wild animal- (Kingdom of Satan). The worst and the scariest of all is this: the words came out of my mouth without my permission; everything I did to this person was done without my consent. Who was talking for me? Whose voice was this?

"Make a tree sound, and its fruit will be sound; make a tree rotten and its fruit will be rotten. For the tree can be told by its fruit. Brood of vipers, how can your speech be good when you are evil? For a man's words flow out of what fills his heart. A good man draws good things from his store of goodness; a bad man draws bad things from his store of badness. So I tell you this, that for every unfounded word men utter they will answer on Judgment day, since it is by your words you will be acquitted, and by your words condemned." (2)

I exercised no control over what I said and how I hurt this person. I felt as if I was possessed. How many other things like this are taking place in my life, things that are more subtle? Things that are more violent? Florence, on the other hand (dearest, gentle Florence), had calmly said: "Maybe there's a reason." (Kingdom of God.) It was clear who was in charge in Her realm. It was clear which heart was reigning in the Kingdom of God and which heart was living in the Kingdom of Man and quickly sliding into the Kingdom of Satan.

A few days later, after recovering from the shock, I started to take stock of what was happening in my life. Was my heart no longer God's home? Was my heart now home to a sort of partnership between Man and Satan, after all these years since my ordination?

Unless we guard the doors (eyes and ears) to the castle (our Heart, where our dear Lord yearns to dwell), our realm (sphere of influence) will be overtaken and be subject to government by the Devourer. Everyone we come into contact with will be hurt. If we do not ask for our King's help to remove the enemy, (who obviously is now in charge), He will do it for us, casting both of us from the Kingdom of God. He must do this since there is no room in His Kingdom (Truth) for any Lie (Satan).

God have mercy on me. Help me to confess and repent for all the terrible things I have done.

31.22 The bottom-line.
If this is where you are at, and if you want to return to your Father's home, with repentance and all the strength you can muster, reach out for your King's hand. He is always with you- waiting- He has never abandoned you. God bless you.